Humble obedience

So I'm not really sure how this whole blogging thing goes, but here we go.
So I am a feeler, to the core, and its hard for me to walk in my relationship with Christ relying completely on the intellectual. Unfortunately, we aren't always going to "feel" Jesus, or His presence, or like we want to be reading or praying or evening being around other believers. And yet, that is where obedience comes in I guess. Jesus didn't say "follow me" - when you feel like it; or "deny yourself and take up your cross" - when you feel like it; we are just to simply obey. This has been a life long struggle of mine, the line between feeling and thinking, between what I feel to be true at the moment, and what I know to be true all the time. A friend recently told me that at the points in his life where he really didn't feel like he wanted to read or to engage with the Lord, he would write down ten things he knew to be true about God. This forced him to face what he knew to be true, and thus be able to lean on that understanding and knowledge, not the deception of our feelings. I see where I have had to do this in other places in my life, different relationships and such; and yet when it comes to Christ, more often than not, I tend to just give up, and sit down like a child and pout. I always hated the idea of spending time with the Lord out of duty or habit, instead of desire or adoration. And yet, there is love and adoration expressed through obedience. The Lord wants our hearts, fully and completely, and He is a jealous God and I am convinced now, more than ever that He will strip us of those things we cling to tighter than we should, to make room in our hearts for the One who deserves it, and desires it so much. And so I guess what I have realized in the last few years is that He will not give up on me or let me go, that he will continue to work in my heart, molding me and shaping me, breaking me down, and building me back up, striping away distractions, and placing new blessing in my life, all the while desiring that I would fall more deeply in love with Him, and learn to trust Him with every fiber of my being. It will be obedience that will carry me through those times with out "feeling" and truth that will lead me to the throne of God.