Finally....

So I haven't really posted anything in a really long time, and even when I did, it was song lyrics or a picture or something. Kind of a cop-out, I know. Well this one will "involve" song lyrics but it won't be the majority of the post! So I found out about a CD release by this great young married couple in Delaware. I wasn't sure whether I wanted to buy the CD though since I hadn't really heard a lot of their music. Well lucky me, my dear friend Jess Ruggieri bought it for me for Christmas!!

Can I just say that these two people are so incredibly talented. I love this album, as anyone who has ridden in my car the last several weeks can attest, (I play it constantly). Jess and I were talking about the album and since she went to the release concert, she got to hear the origin behind each song. After that conversation I paid particular attention to song number four. On the album they have sort of a theme word associated with each song, number four is I think "grace" but I'll have to double check. Anyways, I have listened to this song over and over because in a way it is the cry of my heart at this point in my life, well, and every point... you'll see why.....

"CALLED BEAUTY" by Jenny and Tyler Somers

"daily i could look at the gold and the fine, fine
silver with which You have adorned my arms
and neck and fingers

so i was called beauty in the eyes
these gifts assured me You were mine
so I was called beauty in the eyes of my God and
the angels

yet i sold all the jewels that You gave to me
and i used all the cash on other lovers i’d see
hoping that none would discover this feat
of the muck and the mire i’d continue to feast

daily i could take in the scent of the fragrance
You’ve sprinkled on me and all the clothes
made of cashmere You give cause’ You call me
lovely daily i could look at how fair i was
because of You instead i’d forget what You’ve
given and living for suitors i’d choose

still i remain treasured in the eyes of my God
and the angels

yet i sold all the jewels that You gave to me
and i used all the cash on other lovers i’d see
hoping that none would discover this feat
of the muck and the mire i’d continue to feast

do not spare the rod how i long for faithfulness
tell me once again of Your grace and woo me
in let not these lovers be more attractive
than You God

remind me of love remind of You Jesus all of
You

still i remain treasured in the eyes"
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This song amazes me, the depth of the words they chose to use and how blunt at times. I constantly take what the Lord has given me and I sell it use it to fill myself with other things. The part that really struck a chord with me is the bridge (I underlined it above).

"Do not spare the rod" this isn't something you would think we would ask for, but really, if we long for faithfulness as the next line says, than we should be willing to be broken and shaped and taught. I do long for faithfulness, and if that means using the rod them I surrender to that, to Him. "Tell me once again of your grace and woo me in" it breaks my heart to know that I have to be reminded of His grace, that which is so abundant in my life and all around me, that I would forget it and need to be reminded of it, and yet, it is an utter cry that I know He will answer. "Let not these lovers be more attractive than you God" how many times do I get distracted by things that seem "more attractive" than who Christ is?

Lord, that you would unveil my eyes that I may see your glory and not be distracted. Do not spare the rod on me, break me and change me Lord, "remind me of love, remind me of you"